I got laid off in April.

I have an interview tomorrow.

My first interview since July.

With my old company for a management position, a big step up.

When I say I need this to work out, I mean I NEED this to work out.

Nervous doesn’t even begin to cover it.

I’m feeling really really really depressed today.

I did it. I ate a bowl of mashed potatoes. I want to cry now, but I did it.

lauryn-order:

I bought food yesterday, but I was too nauseous to try and eat. But today’s the day, people. I’m finally gonna try to eat for the first time since Monday.

I’m scared.

I can’t do it. It hurts so badly. I don’t know what to do.

I’m very sad because I was supposed to have a little bit of adult time tonight and watch a show with my bestie, but they went to bed instead.

I’ve been locked in my room for almost two weeks straight now.

I feel so alone.

I bought food yesterday, but I was too nauseous to try and eat. But today’s the day, people. I’m finally gonna try to eat for the first time since Monday.

I’m scared.

faenix16 asked:

Having to wait for confirmation of test results is the absolute worst, that week in July when I was waiting on test results and then waiting on confirmation from the doctor that it was MS like the results seemed to say was the worst. (I was sending anon asks to you the whole time, but wasn't ready to say who I was at the time)

They're both manageable things, at least, though not fun to deal with. But taking care of yourself and being safe with yourself and others can make a world of difference. And I'm sorry that he wasn't safe with you. That wasn't very cool of him.

I hope you start feeling better soon, sending well wishes and good thoughts your way 💖

I got all my other test results but the one I need isn’t coming until December 14. Which is ridiculous, I’ve never had a herpes test take so long until I actually needed it.

I don’t know for sure who gave it to me, it’s one of two people, but I have a strong suspicion and NOBODY disclosed to me. So I’m a mix between feeling guilty if I spread it on accident to the last guy I was with if he’s not the one who gave it to me and feeling angry because what if whoever it was knew and didn’t tell me? Ya know?

I just told my mother. I’m currently sobbing.

sassssssysstuff asked:

I have had various forms of sex with three people of various genders with various body parts who have had herpes and I do not have it. It is possible to have a good, even wild sex life and keep your partner herpes free.

You likely already know that but I thought I might help a little to hear it?

It does help to hear it. My doctor hasn’t told me anything because the results aren’t official yet, so I’ve just been sitting here like worst case scenario-ing everything and it’s just really nice to hear something positive.

Anonymous asked:

an extremely high percentage of people have herpes, and even though i highly doubt you’ll ever need it, there is medication that makes you non-contagious and not have outbreaks. i know many people who have herpes and live happy normal lives (even sexually/romantically and without being on any sort of medication). i’m so sorry you have to deal with the news when things are already tough, but im sending you lots of love and i am not lying when i say i really believe it will all be okay ❤️

Thank you. Thank you thank you thank you 🥺

I’m about to share something and for the first time ever I’m scared about it. People can be cruel on here and right now I’m terrified and need support and kindness.

I thought I was having an interaction from my antibiotics that was causing mouth inflammation.

I was assaulted Sunday, slept all day Monday, and when I woke up on Tuesday, it had gotten worse. WAY worse.

I had a doctor’s appointment. She’s doing all the tests and we’re still waiting on results to confirm it, but she’s pretty confident I have herpes.

Literally two days after I was assaulted I learned I probably have herpes. That was the last thing I needed to hear.

I can not begin to explain the emotions I’m going through or the insane amount of physical pain that I’m in. It’s bad though. Really bad. And I’m scared. Really fucking scared.

If anyone has any love to send or a piece of advice, I could really use it.

I have been stuck in bed since I was assaulted.

I haven’t been able to eat since Monday because of medical reasons. I’m living off of water and protein water because I have $0 to get soft or frozen food/drinks.

This is a nightmare.

Don’t you love when a man assaults you then texts you two days later as if he didn’t do the thing?